​​         AWARENESS DEATH. There is AWARENESS in Death, but the CONSCIOUSNESS has shifted. Awareness being the understood and known connection between all things, of all things. It's a knowing that all things exist, and are BEING. CONSCIOUSNESS of this is your focusing ON specific points in the connection. So it's like looking out at a field. You are aware of the grass. When you step on it, you connect, and feel the full weight of the single blades you're stepping on, so you're conscious of them, but just aware of the rest you're not directly in contact with. You're also aware that the sun is up, but since you were not focused on it, its just awareness... you were not actively thinking and connecting to the knowing you have-- that the sun is up. Get it? So, in death, there is awareness, but the consciousness there is different than it is in the more physical and simplistic in form or tangible realms. A more honest and true DEATH you can, but will not picture. You can... you are capable.... but will not... you do not want to, it is not your will to do so. You are not conscious of it, even though you are aware of more honest and truer forms of knowing death, or what it is to be dead. The way of it is like if you can picture the bottom of Hell, that veil before the abyss.

         HELL? Hell being "all of the want and desires, but on a God level,  and unchecked and running wild." If knowing is light and fire, then know everything, but let the fire run wild. Whatever you WANT to know, and focus on, the fire explodes and gobbles up as you're trying to see and hold it... and it's your fault because you pointed the fire there, and brought the fire out of the thing you focused on.... that's one way of explaining it.

         So it's all of the everythingness of a thing, all of the want of it and every way  you can want it (even wanting it to end), all at once, forever, and it just multiplies and spirals from there... Full consciousness of it, on every level: Body, Mind (logical and emotional) and spiritual to the soul... Completely given over to wants. It's like this, if you, outside of CHRIST, said to yourself, "What do I want?" and received every way it could be, infinitely, instantly, and it lasted forever. What's so bad about that? What do you want to eat? What? You heard me, think of something you want to eat right now. What do you want to eat? Can you see it? Ok, picture every way that thing could be, from rotten and made of feces, to the most perfect portions and the perfect serving and presentation... and everything in between, all at once, and it's constantly fed to you BEFORE YOU COULD VEN THINK OF IT, and while you're tasting it, that's all you taste, so much that it's perfect yet you still want more, and more, and more, forever, and even though you want to stop, you WON'T, not that you can't, because you can, but for some reason (hell being a reason) you WON'T, and when you eat it, before you can taste it, it's gone and you want more, which is instantly there, and you're not even sure you wan it anymore, but now that's all you can want. It goes from there. That's one meal. Picture having EVERYTHING YOU WANT like that. Picture being it. That rotten version of that thing you want to eat, dripping with puss and covered in maggots and mold, and feel your self eating you, pure greed, and you can't stop being eaten, meanwhile the you eating it gets sicker and sicker but can't stop... That perfect version of it, so perfect you don't want to touch it, and now the greedy drooling blind from gluttony you just shoveling it into your face repeatedly, as if it means nothing, not even tasting it, and never satisfied with it... and having that perfect version over and over until it's just as boring and bland and tasteless and you hate it, but it's PERFECT and that's the best you'll have here.... this is one meal... picture it in your mind (logic and emotion) every way it can be played out, spiritually, every way. It's ALL WAYS Always. And that, unchecked wavering unsatisfying eternal burning want. It claws and drinks and sucks you dry and that does nothing but anger it which makes it more ravenous. One thing as every form of that one thing. Picture kissing someone you love. Picture kissing them in an awkward way. Picture the first time you kissed them. Picture them dying and it's the last time you kiss them. Picture lustfully kissing them. Picture kissing them and sucking the life out of them. Picture kissing them and trying to save their life by kissing them, and in that, picture it works for eternity but you still have to do it over and over for eternity, and also at the same time, it DOESN'T WORK, forever, and you have to do that over and over... you wanting just one kiss and never getting it, and at the same time, you NOT wanting it and it never ending and just covering you, using you, you mean nothing to it but it means everything to you, and even means nothing to you, and you love it but can't feel it and keep trying, and you hate it but it loves you, and you don't even know who you are anymore or what's real, but you don't have time to think because this keeps resetting and never stops.... and picture this one kiss, which is every possible kiss, every version of that person, them as them, them as you, them as nothingmess, them as one million demons chewing on your face and they're all you.... do that forever, however each time you do it it burns off, dries you out, which makes you both want more because it's over, and that just grows and grows and grows until you can't make sense of anything, but are fully aware of everything, and conscious of this, and everything else, but even moreso the majority of your consciousness is focused on this, so you're doing it, and seeing your self do it, and are making your self do it, and you are also the kiss. Forever. Aw.. but kisses are soooo sweeeet and nice..... Welcome to hell, with one kiss and one meal. You didn't even get any silver for it. That's a pleasant experience. Picture every aspect of BEING burning that way. IN THE I HOPE THIS HELPS Project, there's some different types of hell listed, which religions have them, what they look like, if you're interested. That's an ongoing project, so if you have any information on it, by all means, comment there and let me know so I can keep it as accurate as possible. Thanks! It's a listing of Spiritual, Religious, Esoteric, Mystical, Weird, and OTHER things-- a who's who, what's what cheat sheet. No sigils or pictures so nothing is released, but a stat sheet. Tell you what, I'll post the Hell listing here at the end of this conversation so you can see what they look like. BACK TO HELL... Now, the deeper you go, the more ravenous and solid and thick it gets. AT THE BOTTOM OF IT ALL, the bottom of HELL... is YOU.  You are the root of it.  You are the foundation. The base frequency everything comes from and runs on is you. It feeds on you. But you can't see how to let it go. How do you let go of your self? Going further and further down you're all you've known. You can't blame "God" because YOU WERE GOD. Remember? Blame yourself infinitely. That's a deception but you won't know, hopefully. Anyways, so, you are there at the bottom, and look down, THERE'S THE ABYSS. You're the line. As vile and disconnected, as ugly and foul and all ways of being your self, so beautiful but it's never enough-- just one more thing, just one more to make it better... all of this YOU, until it's the ground, the muck, and below you is nothingness. picture being a churning coal held up into the blackest night. It's kind of like that. You're the coal, and beyond you is nothing. You can't even picture that, which is why it's filled with all black, but going into it even the black is stripped away, and there is NOTHING. All you have to do is fall (or rise) and maybe you can escape. If you let go of your self you drop. Into LACK. Pure LACK. Picture the abundance of GOD. Now make the opposite. You can't even picture that. It's cold? No, cold is a feeling and a perception. You don't have that there. It's eternal? Eternal is a concept, and you have awareness of being, and this is LACK of that. It's peaceful then? No, peace is a conscious perception, and there's lack of that.  Well then I'll go back up through hell to get out. What will you grab onto? How will you even remember anything? NO, YOU NEVER STOP BEING, SO YOU'RE IN THERE, but lost. And if YOU can be in there, and this is after you've been HELL ITSELF... what else is down there? What will it do to you to try to get out? You don't erase. You're not asleep. You... are BEING... Nothing. Energy is never destroyed, only transformed, transmuted. So you go from HAVING, BEING WITH, and BEING IN ABUNDANCE to Having, Being With and Being IN NOTHINGNESS, and nothingness is just something to call it. It even lacks that. It's a vortex so it sucks you in, but at the same time you go nowhere, forever. So, as far as the abyss, picture a lit match in your burning hand. Your hand is on fire. The fire is hell. YOU are your hand. The lit match is your soul. The fire on the end of the match is God (the light in you). THE ABYSS is a well.  Either you let go and watch the match drop into the dark of the well and be swallowed without going out, or you keep trying to raise your burning hand which just makes the flames climb eating at the match, confusing your view of the light and fire at the end of it. You can't tell what's the light of the match and what's hell. Drop the match into the well, but keep your eyes on the match and have your mind BE the match.  Feel the fall. The well goes on forever, so the light just fades from you watching it fall. Your hand can burn away, but in the well, falling, YOU STILL EXIST. THE LIGHT STILL EXISTS. If you can see your light's glow around you it might illuminate some other things in there which might be upset by it, or even want it knowing that it can help them try to get out. You have to fall further and deeper to "escape" that which shrinks the light more and more. It never goes out. you ever see the coal of a match, blinking, just before it goes out? Do that forever in a dark space where darkness is the blessing because if you lose the darkness all there is is NOTHING. GOD (the Non Conscious but All AWARENESS Spirit) is aware of ALL OF THIS because it is aware of all things, and is all awareness of all things, all ways, always... even hell and everything happening in it, and the abyss, forever. God (the Conscious Being) is CONSCIOUS OF YOU because it sees itself (the light, the fire it gave to ONLY YOU, it's an extremely special and specific fire that nothing else in all of the multiverse has but you-- not even other versions of you has this) and how it is falling, forever. In fact, there's some grace for you because you may not even be conscious of this thought the God part of you is, it allows you to disconnect so you don't experience that. Having, Being WITH, Being IN. You might not be IN the spirit of God, but you are WITH God so you are still in the presence of, and you still are HAVING God even though you are not conscious of it. Meanwhile God is WITH you, HAVING you, and IN you still. Completely. That coal, that shell of your light and fire... It never goes out. God never loses sight of it. You just lose sight of it. You have an angel. Hopefully they don't have to go with you, but they're still connected. RUACH. Breath. The fire needs air. It needs to be pulled in, and pushed out. It needs to be breathed in (embraced, taken in and held and KNOWN, meditated on, digested, it needs to inhabit-- Depart from me for I never KNEW or was in or inhabited YOU) and breathed out (KNOWN, expressed, reflected, empowered via you, made YOUR flesh, given YOUR light and consciousness and energy and power). It grows from this. It makes YOU grow from this. All of those martial arts exercises are focused on breathing because of this. So you have to push through the dark, or release and have God reach in and bring the light back. No shame in it. Do what you have to do to get out of there. Once it is restored, look up, through the hell and everything else, stay focused on the light on the match you have. Join that with the light above you. Hold it up until you reach it, and it reaches you. If you have to call out and say that you cannot do it alone, that's natura. Trying to do it alone is how you got down there. YOU NEED TWO POINTS TO VIBRATE. You are only ONE point. Vibration is friction (Isra-El... wrestles with God) so that's fine, but don't let go of that MATCH. It's YOUR MATCH. So you two re-establish your relationship, and here's a key... Like previously mentioned, THE SPIRIT IS ALWAYS ALL WAYS AWARE OF YOU. God THE CONSCIOUS BEING IS ALL WAYS ALWAYS CONSCIOUS OF (Focusing it's awareness on) YOU. It's YOU who has to go back. IT never left. IT will NEVER leave. IT CAN NOT and WILL NOT leave YOU.

BACK TO DEATH... The focus is being OUTSIDE of, not disconnected from but outside the sphere of the HEART (Spirit) and MIND (God) of the Pure BEING. The Most High God is the Conscious  portion, and the Pure BEING or Supreme BEING which is BOTH SIDES (conscious & non conscious) is what you could call the Supreme BEING. The GOD part being the part that has a will, it's will is first for you to be. So when it comes to "dying" that honestly never happens. However, since it's CONSCIOUSNESS, then dying is moving your self outside of it's will and view. YOU are leaving IT. To be dead is to have IT (GOD, SPIRIT, BEING) not aware or conscious of you, which AS FAR AS I KNOW does not happen, but DYING (which is still BEING in a state of dying), there is still an awareness of you, eternally, but you will not be seen. Not that you CAN NOT be seen, but you WILL NOT be seen. YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS (Focused Willed Awareness) is opposite, it has turned away from what is SEEING (Light). You have the lowest vibration. SO YOU ARE STILL BEING. YOU STILL HAVE A VIBRATION. Faster vibration produces more heat, which produces more spark, which produces more light, which when applied to what you are conscious of produces more FIRE and BEING. You can be KILLING YOURSELF. You do not "die", but you move outside of being seen, because you are only focused on your self. You are burning your self. You lose your self because you need another BEING to have friction and vibration with. You cannot produce light on your own. You can try to make your own vibration but you in friction with you rubs your light out. So you burn out. Light fades and dies and you cannot be seen by your self, and since you are turned away you cannot see if you are seen. All you see is you and your self, your situation, your wants, your fears, your shrinking light, your reflections. Even if it is known where you are, and that you are there. You would have to reach out to (or IN to) something connected to  light to reconnect, and align your point to it, to re-establish the vibration, so you can produce friction, then heat, then spark, then light, then BREATHE (Spirit) AND MEDITATE... focus on the way back. The FIRE there will burn a path back. Follow the vibration. it's an energy (spirt) that goes to and from you, and to and from the source. HAVE, BE WITH, and BE IN it and its easier. It can carry you there if you are IN it. If not, you can always go to hell. Everything is something to do. FIRE UNCHECKED and Unmanaged, or UNFOCUSED WILD FIRE is a way of and to HELL. It has no connection. You are sending out but receiving only your self, so it drains and feels hollow, making you burn and want more to fill the hole you're burning. It vibrates wildly everywhere. It has no other solid focused point so the light just grows and shrinks wildly. WHEN YOU ALIGN YOURSELF... if you align your self with CHRIST, "GET THEE BEHIND CHRIST" because to stand in FRONT you BLOCK IT and will just lose focus and possibly either fall or end up wildly burning (passionately lost, mind burning and wavering wildly like an unchecked wanting tongue) in hell. Placing your self first is HAVING ANOTHER GOD BEFORE ME. Ye are Gods, yes... but NOT BEFORE ME. Ye are Gods AFTER ME (AFTER MY IMAGE, MIND & HEART). When that happens, you lose the vibration, you go cold, lose light, and begin to die. YOU are away from the Mind and Heart.. it is not away from YOU. WHY HAS THOU FORSAKEN ME? Why am I not one of those you're focused on? Why am I outside of the circle? To go to Hell and Death, and recapture and realign and subdue those vibrations of things on the outside, positions (manifestation), etc., and show them you're there too. You did not die, because you are CONSCIOUS and AWARE, and GOD is AWARE of where you are, and always all ways CONSCIOUS of you because that Consciousness is what God is. There is more to all of this, yes. Why do you want it? What have you done with what you have? What exactly do you have, that you want more of? Go be.