MERCH & IMAGE BREAKDOWNS
So, there's a menu for the BREAKDOWNS at the top (right after this) of the page, one in the middle of the pages, and one at the bottom of the page. It's got a video playlist of ALL of the Product Videos, so if you're looking for that, it's there. Also, it has all of the designs linked to their sections, and all of the collections linked to the store to check out.
When doing this page (I had to break it up to a few designs per page to save load times) it turns out that this page has the most fire in it. It's got a decent amount of water too, but the fire here is pretty up there. Just a heads up. Not that it's really needed, but PARENTAL ADVISORY, which just means practically nothing since the tv or internet does most of the parenting these daze. A few of my favorite ones are on this page: The Doors Are Not Exits, Don't Jesus The Christ Out...
Designing is fun. I've always loved graphic design FOR MYSELF, because for others it can get to be a headache... just being honest. It's the outcome. Not the design, but what people do with it. You put a lot into work. You're literally manifesting their dream. Either you're the one with the time, mind, and resources, or any combination of those. Whatever the case, they are not doing this part of their dream, and you are. Now, if working for others was my dream, then ok, but it's not. If i decide to help someone, and put my own things aside to help them realize their dreams, or just to level up, then you'd think they would make good on it. TIME, MIND, and RESOURCES. It all comes down to that. If they're willing to give away the resources because they're not willing to put in the time, and they don't have the mind-- leave. A huge percentage, maybe the majority of things I've done for others went up in smoke. There were a lot where, yeah, they actually made something good of it as was discussed when i took the jobs, but... the majority, where i put in the most? down the drain.
So instead of "pearls before swine"ing any more, I'm investing in myself. In doing so, a lot of the wisdom and life lessons I've learned, a lot of the sarcasm i've grown into, and a lot of the beauty and pearls i would like to share, I'm learning to channel into these designs. I take it serious and put a lot into them, and it must mean something because I've never faced the amount of challenges with anything, ever, as i have with this project. I hope you can get out of it what you needed to get out of it. I know a lot of folks are distracted and "don't have time" so that's one reason I condensed a lot of books and things into a design. You might not be able to read the book, or watch the video, but the t-shirt you have time for, and look good in it.
After having done a bit of production of all sorts, and been on different sides of poverty (and other) lines, i know what it is to "need" (or want) something that would keep you from going over the edge, but not being able to afford it. I've seen people fall that way, so i try to keep everything affordable. Even though it's print-on-demand and I'll take a bit of a hit, if i can get it to you at a more affordable price, then ok. Everyone's going to die and leave most of this here. So, while here, help as many live, and spread as much life as you can-- that's why the shop (store) is how it is, and why what's in it is in it. I hope it helps you out.
This section written 03.14.26
LAST EDITED: 03.15.26
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EXPLAINER VIDEOS (Merch, & Images)
EXPLAINER VIDEOS (Merch, & Images)
CRAZY TALKS #49: NO OTHER GODS BEFORE WHO? (02.05.26)
Crazy Talks #52: I HOPE THIS HELPS TOUR (hacked for social media - 02.05.26)
Crazy Talks #30'Something: "HONEST Real Talk" (01.24.26)
M E N U
ALL DESIGNS: Agnanadi; AllLies; The ArtWork's Outside The Box; BEING Symbol (Classics); BEING Symbol (Skull version); BEING BE-ing Being (Str8 Outta); BLACKLIGHT; Blacklight Quotes (Be Honest); Blacklight Quotes (No One Or Thing...); Blacklight Quotes (One Fire To Another); Blacklight Quotes (Peace & Blessings); Blacklight Quotes (The Only Thing Illegal...); Blacklight Quotes (You Still Have Time); Black Knight; Boney Phace; Charlie Beats; Coal Diamond; DefTrap Ronin; DefTrap Ronin (B.EL.YEWS); DefTrap Ronin (kNo Choice); DefTrap Ronin (The ONE); Don't Jesus The Christ Out of Yeshua, Your Self, or me (Artist & Park); THE DOORS ARE NOT EXITS; Fire Warning; Frank V. Durden; For Shore; Future's So Bright; Garuda VI; Get Crossed At Your Own Risk; Green Hero Man Guy or Girl Woman Person Thing; HappAi Face; Head In The Clouds; I Love Um...; I'm Doing My Best; Just Let AI Do It; Kemuri Ashain; Meditate On The Word Night & Day; Mind Over Matter (Game); NOT OK; OM-A-ZING; Rugpull (The Seein' Clown); Samurai Ruach (brand); Shmokey Phace; Sky's The Limit; Take A Sabbath; TryAngles; Trying To Have A Nice Day; Turn Your Frown something something...; Vesti La Giubba; Warm Jesters; WorldWide Royalty (WWR SERIES); You Fell Asleep On Purpose;
COLLECTIONS/ CATEGORIES: Agninadi (Fire dragon); Bags; BEING Symbols; Blacklight Vibe; Books, Games, & Music; Coal Diamond; Computer Love; EVERYTHING ELSE; Garuda VI; Hats & Headwear; Jackets, Jerseys, Long-Sleeves; Ladies Only; Mainly Text; Rugpull's Big Top; Samurai Ruach (Brand); Spiritual Fire; Tees (Raglan baseball tees); Tees (short-sleeve & tanks); Trying To Have A Nice Day; Vibrant Vibes; WorldWide Royalty (WWR); .
DefTrap Ronin (WWR)
At the time of writing this (03.15.26 at 1:07 am), the DefTrap series is one of the most recent ones I've done. There are a few designs that i wasn't sure where to "file" them, under BLACKLIGHT, WorldWide Royalty, or what, so i made DefTrap because it has BLACKLIGHT attitude, but a bit more WWR grit to it... eventually tossing it into the WWR pile.
THE NAME? DEF... as in the hip hop term, meaning really cool or badass. ALSO, a play on words, which is what hip hop does, it's a flip of the word DEATH (Deathtrap)... which kind of goes without saying. TRAP as in how this world and reality is a trap. So, all in all, it's a blunt statement about how you need to escape this reality, with some sarcasm, lessons learned, and just cool images and stuff all woven in. The actual name is DefTrap Ronin, meaning the things in this world are not your masters. Ronin are samurai with no master. So it's a [ronin] samurai navigating this very appealing (def) death trap, but freely.
TRAP... Also, and it's a shame more rappers don't know this, but trap shooting is a game, and pretty much like the game in this world. In trap shooting, you have a shotgun (usually 12 gauge) and shoot at clay targets (birds, white plates) that come flying out (at roughly 40 mph) of the "trap house". Shooters rotate through five stations on a 16-yard line, firing 25 total targets per round. A lot of rappers are focused on being in the trap house, but the real game is the shooters shooting whatever comes out of there (which would be you), who's moving all of the white plates for them. It's life to you, a game to them. You live and die by it, while they do it for fun on a weekend at the country club. Then again, "Ghetto" was all the rage, where people were keeping it Ghetto, completely ignoring (or just ignorant to) how the most famous ghettos were made by the Nazis to put prisoners in. For more on the TRAP, i'll add some videos.
DESIGNS? Oh boy gosh golly are YOU ever in for some treats! Since i reached this level of the game at a point where I'd done a few PRINTFUL designs, and gotten a bit of a system down, then designing these things is pretty fun. There are a few designs (no sneak peeks this time... check in the videos for those) in the works, but I'll keep a list here, and update it as they come out. All of the pictures I'll put in the same slider gallery. It saves space.
The first one out the gate is "YOU ARE THE ONE" (the DefTrap Dollar) which is about CURRENCY (Current-See). This one is loaded with stuff.
"YOU ARE THE ONE" (the DefTrap Dollar) which is about CURRENCY (Current-See). This one is loaded with stuff. Starting from how the dollar is hard to see, and you are the "One" ($1, the root of the currency-- what the game is based on, and breaks down to make change). That means, in this Def Trap, it may be hard to find your self, and see your self truly. The face on the bill is a skeleton, but with a bunch of riches, in a fur coat. A lot of what you go through to gain fame and wealth is a def trap. On top of that, the face is associated with the number of the bill which gives it's value (like a status symbol) but the numbers are hidden, while the skeleton who is the face is focused on just getting money. The skeleton's haircut is a box, because his mind is blocked in, but he grew that trap and shaped it himself. It's a part of him, even after he's (living) dead. There are 3 chains, because he has 3 links to everything (see the Try Angles design for the 3's breakdown). There's a nod to The United Slaves Of America at the top of the bill (FB page). This planet is a business, linked to slavery (says me), and business is about the manipulation of the flow of currency (current-see). Given that, what you see the most is the Def Trap. The word Ronin is scrambled and hidden as the serial number (social security or id number for that ONE piece of currency to exist and be tracked in the system), and even becomes a number-- a part of the system of economics. That's a camouflage, a way for the ronin to blend in with the system. You see it and it blends in (R, 15=0, 14=N, 09=I, 14=N) seen above the RAP in the trap, because the ronin are able to exist beyond all of the reputations (rap/rep), the talk (rap), and even the whole vibration and things that get you "caught up" (rap-ture). Yeah, you didn't think it was all of that in there, huh? Not done yet. The Secretary of the Treasury is Ben Elohim (the sons of god/watchers), and the Treasurer is Archon Demiurge. The district numbers (8=H, 5=E, 12=L, 12=L) are there too. Above the Treasury Seal (right side) is the capitol Washing Tons, a nod to how the system is washing tons of brains, minds, and souls. The Fed Reserve District seal (left side) says "Time. Mind. Resources. Pay To Play Only." around in a circle, because that game keeps you in the loop. Those are your currency broken down, and you pay with them to play this game here. In the middle it says "Not God" because though they're playing god with money, none of this is it. There are some other things about the lettering, but this is good for now, right?
If you're interested in WHY the trap, more than whatever's offered here, there's a piece on it here which gets into it called THE WAR OF THE GOD. There's a section on the creation of the MATRIX (MOTHER).
"YOU ARE THE ONE" (the DefTrap Dollar) which is about CURRENCY (Current-See). This one is loaded with stuff. Starting from how the dollar is hard to see, and you are the "One" ($1, the root of the currency-- what the game is based on, and breaks down to make change). That means, in this Def Trap, it may be hard to find your self, and see your self truly. The face on the bill is a skeleton, but with a bunch of riches, in a fur coat. A lot of what you go through to gain fame and wealth is a def trap. On top of that, the face is associated with the number of the bill which gives it's value (like a status symbol) but the numbers are hidden, while the skeleton who is the face is focused on just getting money. The skeleton's haircut is a box, because his mind is blocked in, but he grew that trap and shaped it himself. It's a part of him, even after he's (living) dead. There are 3 chains, because he has 3 links to everything (see the Try Angles design for the 3's breakdown). There's a nod to The United Slaves Of America at the top of the bill (FB page). This planet is a business, linked to slavery (says me), and business is about the manipulation of the flow of currency (current-see). Given that, what you see the most is the Def Trap. The word Ronin is scrambled and hidden as the serial number (social security or id number for that ONE piece of currency to exist and be tracked in the system), and even becomes a number-- a part of the system of economics. That's a camouflage, a way for the ronin to blend in with the system. You see it and it blends in (R, 15=0, 14=N, 09=I, 14=N) seen above the RAP in the trap, because the ronin are able to exist beyond all of the reputations (rap/rep), the talk (rap), and even the whole vibration and things that get you "caught up" (rap-ture). Yeah, you didn't think it was all of that in there, huh? Not done yet. The Secretary of the Treasury is Ben Elohim (the sons of god/watchers), and the Treasurer is Archon Demiurge. The district numbers (8=H, 5=E, 12=L, 12=L) are there too. Above the Treasury Seal (right side) is the capitol Washing Tons, a nod to how the system is washing tons of brains, minds, and souls. The Fed Reserve District seal (left side) says "Time. Mind. Resources. Pay To Play Only." around in a circle, because that game keeps you in the loop. Those are your currency broken down, and you pay with them to play this game here. In the middle it says "Not God" because though they're playing god with money, none of this is it. There are some other things about the lettering, but this is good for now, right?
If you're interested in WHY the trap, more than whatever's offered here, there's a piece on it here which gets into it called THE WAR OF THE GOD. There's a section on the creation of the MATRIX (MOTHER).
This section written 02.28.26
LAST EDITED: 03.11.26
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Don't "Jesus" The CHRIST Out of Yeshua, Your SELF, or me (ALL designs)
DON'T JESUS THE CHRIST OUT OF YESHUA YOUR SELF OR ME is a bit much for some to chew on, or even to swallow and then digest. How does that even happen? Well, things are deep here in this game called consciousness-- says me. In all honesty it's the same unchanging game it's always all ways been. There's a power in humanity, one which is a spiritual or energetic thing. This reality is rooted in division, deception, delusion, and a few other things. When you look at "SPACE" (the actual SPACE, not the galaxy or stars or solar systems, but the actual concept of SPACE) then you begin to see it. Space is the thing that isolates and therefore defines, it contains and empowers, it divides and yet makes oneness of all things, even it's self (SPACE). All things exist in a space. They cannot exist outside of their space. BEING is BE-ing in SPACE. Consciousness is one of the spaces. To control the space and the things in the space is a taste of the Spirit of GOD (Ruach Elohim, different from Ruach Hakodesh - Holy/Wholly Spirit), says me, but folks get lost in that. What is there to allow the same freedom as "god" (one exercising divinity and will consciously, bending awareness to their space, conducting business: the manipulation of the flow of currency and current-see)?? CHRIST. However, Yeshua, one embodiment of Christ (Christos, anointed one, etc.) was born into a space dominated by things like GODs (ELs), particularly El Shaddai, and when it comes to being the LORD (Adonai) of ones energy in a space, only one thing can exist in one space in one moment. So the second people start recognizing you and your empowerment movement as a thing to make lords-- you have to go. THAT is a bit of what this is about.
On a bit of a deeper note, the trap is (on a simple level) the inevitability of division, and how that leads to consciousness. It's inevitable at the same time, because it's consciousness that experiences and energizes. It's the gate keeper that activates the flow, and pauses to build and release. Everything is breath-- emptying and filling, gaining and loss, birth and "death" or decay, and the consciousness is the one that KNOWS these things exist. The pure awareness of them is always all ways there, yes, but that's not consciousness. Consciousness, according to the SAMURAI RUACH school of thought, heavy on the Blacklight, lol. Anyways, since the game is BEING and the way to actively play as an individual is simply to BE, how to you get the most out of it? Some say GOD. But that limits you to being just that. CHRIST makes GOD an adjective, or even a verb (if Lording isn't the verb)... but it keeps it from being a noun. YOU are the noun. You retain your self. People give this away because here, in the game, things and therefore minds thinking those things, gets programmed to base everything on 'power" and with that, "GOD." The CHRIST is the freedom and real power, if there was any, but people remove that from their self and place it all in a GOD that they know nothing of.
THE NAME... tiltle, or overall vibe... the full line is "Don't 'Jesus' The CHRIST out of Yeshua, your SELF, or me." Plain and simple, if you skipped to this part and didn't read all of the rest (clever girl), it basically means, there is a power and freedom, which is a spiritual key. This spirit comes from the WHOLLY SPIRIT, says me, and is called CHRIST. It's a balancing system that humanity has the power to enact and make use of, which this game ("reality") we're in is set to distract us from. It's the difference between GOD and PURE BEING YOUR SELF. God is a very dominant spirit, energy, and because of that, many get swallowed or lost in it-- even to the point they think they ARE it. If you know THE 3 SPIRITUAL RELATIONSHIPS: (1) BEING WITH a spirit, (2) BEING HAVING a Spirit, and lastly (3) BEING IN a Spirit... then you can see how the two things GOD (the spirit) and YOU (the conscious being using spirits) can get mixed up, especially when IN THE SPIRIT. The ability to exist as both, balanced, is CHRIST (says me). People give that power away so they can chase it. That gives validation, causes friction, which makes heat and light and fire (understanding to knowing, want, illumination, passion, etc.)-- I understand, yes, but it's still annoying. Stop doing that... just a suggestion.
CHRIST is the key you're looking for, but people give it away. It's allowed, and is a part of the game. For ALL THINGS (Pure BEING) to be ALL things, then it has to be that too-- that way has to be expressed. Darker individuals understand to the point of knowing this, and then they express it.
THE DESIGN depends on which one you like the most. So far, as of today (03.26.26) there are 2 versions, or 2 designs.
The first one I call that one THE ARTIST Version, is all lettering (typography). It looks like a bands logo, a nod to how this mindset is a vibrational thing, a part of the eternal song, which can get heavy and dark at points... just regulate the metals. By the way, i couldn't tell you which one i like the most. BUT, because that one may look too edgy, or may be too straight forward for some folks, I did one that literally paints the picture, if you catch it...
THE PARK Version is the one with everyone at the park. Hmm.. that explanation was pretty easy. If you know how to read it, which is what you're here for maybe, then it gets even more fun.
TO HELP WITH THAT, here's a game. So, ignore the picture. This has little to do with that. We'll come back to that later. For now, relax, and empty your mind as much as possible, or fill it with positive, encouraging, relaxing things. The game is this, to imagine you're in your favorite chair. Sink into it. Relax. Picture no stress and nothing to do but relax in your favorite chair. It's one of those, "all of the stress, worries, and woes of the world just melt away" scenarios. Be there in that. In your favorite chair in your favorite place. You can softly bring in your favorite music. Pretty chill, aye? Now, lean back, and look to your left, and there's Jesus... just chillin right along with you. If you could tell Jesus a joke, what would it be? Honestly, tell that joke and see what reaction you get. When Jesus reacts to your joke, imagine that YESHUA leans forward, sitting on your right, and he asks, "Wait, tell it again?!" with a smile on his face, like he got it, and it's funny, but he really wanted to savor the moment. Then CHRIST puts his hands on your shoulder, and you look and see CHRIST standing behind you, cracking up, and starts giving you a neck rub, which is divine. Yeah, so, BACK TO THE PICTURE.... and be honest.... when you thought of Jesus, which one of these folks in the picture did you picture? When i said YESHUA, did you even have a mental picture? When i said CHRIST, and Christ popped up behind you, what was going on in your mind? Where did it come from? Was Christ ever in you, or is it always in Jesus, and what does Yeshua, who's mission was to teach you that CHRIST is in you-- how do you think he feels about that? WHO IS THAT JESUS you tell to take the wheel, after Yeshua gave it to you, with a manual called CHRIST?
I do that to show people that JESUS is NOT YESHUA. Not anymore. Yes, it's one pronunciation or translation of the name YESHUA, but just like AMERICA (the corporation/Jesus) is not AMERICA (the people and land and culture/Yeshua), nor is it AMERICANS (the spirit, you in the spirit, and your way of being YOU as an AMERICAN/CHRIST)... When you think of "JESUS" you do not think of YESHUA. As a matter of fact, YESHUA means very little to people, because he's been overwritten by JESUS. You can see the difference now, and how people, thanks to "Churches" (more so the entities they've become, or the entities using them) have "Jesused" the CHRIST clean out of YESHUA... and YOU. You wait on the Lord. Which Lord? The Lord that said, "Take up your bed and walk"? The one who said, "Your sins are forgiven, no go and sin no more"? The same guy who was born under the rule of another Lord (who employs accusers and tempters to get convictions) which might be what got him killed for setting all of that guy's slaves free? Personal rabbit hole, that last bi t, but he did say that the stuff he did and greater you will do. And people are like, "YES, THIS IS WHAT WE WANT... Now, YOU DO IT! And we'll just wait on you for the reward." They've taken the key to freedom and used a copy of it to lock everyone up. TAKE THE SPIRIT BACK. Which you don't even have to do, because it never left. Again, "here" in this "reality" division is a huge thing. It's one of the oldest tricks in the book.
In church services, there's a thing called THE INVOCATION, which is where thru song, scripture, or some religious act, or format in the script, the SPIRIT OF GOD (Ruach Elohim, one piece of he puzzle) is called down. Then, some people and churches even call that one piece of the puzzle the whole big picture (Ruach Hakodesh-- the holy/wholly spirit, the whole puzzle containing all of the spirits put together)-- they call THAT "God" which is like saying YOU are your toe. So they INVOKE A SPIRIT. They call down or up, or over, a SPIRIT, which is NOT A CONSCIOUS THING. When you SUMMON THE COURAGE, or WORK UP THE NERVE, was it a little body builder that came to help you? NO? All in your mind (logic and emotion) which you focused into a belief by way of thinking? ok. But summoning spirits sounds like witchcraft or some kind of magic! I'll leave that alone. Well, no, let's touch on it for just one second.... if you have the power to empower yourself, and you're told its wrong and evil, but to give that ability and trust it to someone else... then are THEY doing witchcraft for you? Because when you pray... to them... to do that very thing... and then they ask some sacrifice or offering from you...
Anyways, so, the invocation in church-- they call the spirit of God into the church.... where it lives, and where they go to find it, but for some reason you have to call the omnipresent all-knowing spirit to a specific spot because it was unaware it was not already there for your purpose. It's like they're inviting you into your own house because the temple that their body is isn't the place for that kinda stuff. But the music will get you to come back to your own house because YOU left? Then they'll "give" all of the power to that spirit they called. Keep in mind, you have the power (that same spirit they called), were born with it, and it will never leave you. You'd have to put it into other things, like a puppet, and then believe the puppet has the power, not you working the strings. And whenthe spirit reacts (or the individual who you gave the power to, uses the power you gave it, and then charges you) you call it at least three to five (minimum) different things: (1) GOD which is a spirit, Ruach Elohim, (2) "God" as in a conscious individual but you don't distinguish if it's (2A) El/Elyon (The most High, Deut. 32:8), (2B) El Shaddai (Almighty God of The Mountain, The mighty One Of The Mountain (Mount Sinai/Horeb), Yahweh, Yah, YHVH, YHWH, Allah, Jehovah, Jah, The Eternal One, Adonai (Lord), Hashem, Deut. 32:9), (2C) EmmanuEL (GOD/EL plus US/Humanity, God With Us, manifestation of CHRIST), who is also (Kinda 3 but 2D also) YESHUA (Yehoshua, etc.)... or if they mean (3) straight up CHRIST the spirit, which gets twisted up from the spirit it was born from (4) The HOLY/Wholly Spirit (Ruach Hakodesh)... or maybe they mean (5) Jesus who is not Yeshua anymore-- no more than JORDANS are Michael Jordan the individual. This is just the Abrahamic stuff, not even Source, THE FATHER, Higher Self, Wholly/Divine BEING or anything else. It's very easy to JESUS, GOD, or LORD (and other things like MONEY, LOVE, Drugs, etc.) the CHRIST out of YOUR SELF, and even Yeshua. The shirt is a reminder to stop doing that. Don't get me wrong, again, i get it, that distraction is a part of the game, and someone has to do it. Everything is something to do. C'est la vie, la guerre, et le jeu.
This section written 03.26.26
LAST EDITED: 03.26.26
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The DOORS Are NOT EXITS
THE DOORS ARE NOT EXITS is maybe one of my favorite things. The meaning behind it could be viewed as dark or terrifying, or liberating and empowering, or challenging and even crushing to some. It's one of those kind of thick realities, where most people would rather not look at, but you'll have to deal with. It starts at "death is an illusion" and goes from there, but in a Blacklight way.
THE PHRASE is about how the doors to "here" (conscious being) are not exits.
WHEN IT COMES TO ENTRY AND EXITING OF REALITIES... There are many points in and out of realities. None of the doors are exits. When you enter, you bring your self. Wherever you go, there you are. You can opt for ignorance, but ignorance is a reaction to knowing-- it does not change the fact that you still know.
WHEN IT COMES TO SUICIDE OR ESCAPING YOUR SELF... Suicide is a sensitive subject for some, but this phrase/concept also deals with that. Suicide is a reality. Not saying that one is a nihilist, pessimist, misguided, or in any way negative, but there are many outlooks, all of them just points that you arrive and and will move on from-- some of them paint existence, especially conscious existence, as somewhat meaningless, or a trap, or a negative thing. It is at points, if that is what you are thinking. And when that thought changes, then it is the other thought. Consciousness is how you shape reality. That's why there's that YOU STILL HAVE TIME. TAKE YOUR TIME, MIND, AND RESOURCES shirt. Some seek an escape from the crap that this "life" can be, so they head for the door, but the doors are not exits. You do not cease to exist. In fact, you go to a more intense place. HERE is the escape. Try sleeping and dreaming nothing, as opposed to ending up in the realm where all dreams are reality all the time. On top of that, you're linked even MORE to everyone and everything else. You take it all with you, and you end up there, meaning you never die.
WHEN IT COMES TO CONSCIOUSNESS and ASCENDING people tend to think that they're leveling up, or going from one place to some higher thing. You are your self. All you can and will do, from now until forever, is be you, all ways, always. There is one path-- your path, and you are always on it. There is no right or wrong there, just what you do, and the why your consciousness assigns in the moment-- all a personal belief. So, given that, you don't go anywhere in ascension, but back to your self. It's like you are all things, so you come here to be one drop of that, and have the experience of that. Some think here is about being happy or having fun. It's about BEING, period. That's why evil and darkness exist. They're ways of being too. And they are definitely expressed "here" in this "reality" so if good and "love is light" and all of the other marketable, comforting, blinding, numbing crap that people buy and sell was the totality and sole purpose, those things would not be here. They are here. They will be here. It is inevitable. Sure, there inevitably is a place where they do not exist, and ALSO a place where they are not bad or negative. Are you there? It's all in the mind of the experiencer. Go as high as you want, THE DOORS ARE NOT EXITS. You do not escape your self. You just go more into your self.
Personal belief, but there's no life or death, just BEING (and that split into conscious being and non conscious being). You're always being something. Everything is some form of BEING BE-ing some form of Being. Even if you were to BE non-existent, you would still be being something. So, no matter what doors you take, to or from here, you will still be being-- says me. Taking that a step further, there's the split of PURE DIVINE WHOLLY BEING into two parts: Conscious BEING and Non-Conscious BEING-- again, personal belief as of right now (03/14/26).
Non-Conscious BEING is where all things just ARE. Everything is purely BEING it's pure divine self and in that state. In pure being (in a non-conscious state) the WHY of all things does not need to be understood, it just IS. There is no consciousness there, so no want. You are, and in that, you are just divinely you. You could call this the SPIRIT or pure ENERGY of a thing, or The WAY or Idea/Thought of a thing. It's HOW.
There is awareness, as awareness (one way to explain it) is the knowing between all things, the energetic space (or it's what's in the space). Consciousness, says me, is the willing or bending, the usage or manipulation of awareness for an individual will, which is a conscious thing. The force of gravity does not want to hold the ground down. It just does. It is aware of the ground. The ground is aware of gravity. This is where YOU WANT TO BE DIVINE. Keep in mind, you already are, but you want to have the experience of doing it your self, and knowing what it is, of knowing self and all other things. Pointless, yes, but inevitable, or else it would not exist, and currently be. C'est la vie, la guerre, et le jeu.
AWARENESS: Non-Conscious BEING is where all things just are. There is awareness, as awareness (one way to explain it) is the knowing between all things, the energetic space (or it's what's in the space). Like if your hand was a point, and your mind was another point, your arm is how you are aware of your hand.
CONSCIOUSNESS is the willing of awareness. You want something from whatever you're aware of, for the sake of your own divinity, and so you will awareness to be a certain way. So back to the example, You in your head want to grab food to eat, so your mind moves your arm to use your hand to grab food.
THE DESIGN is split into two different kinds. There's the flat lettering, with the cracks in it. It just looks cool, says me. Working with text (typography) is fun sometimes. It's simple but difficult.
THE DESIGN is split into two different kinds. There's the flat lettering, with the cracks in it. It just looks cool, says me. Working with text (typography) is fun sometimes. It's simple but difficult.
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LAST EDITED: 03.27.26
Fire Warning
FIRE WARNING. Some folks will love this, just because it's got fire on it. Some because it's got "Fire" on fire on it. Others will know this as a way of being, and it's more for them. Like the whole "T.H.U.G.L.I.F.E." thing... how some folks get it tatted, some get the t-shirt, some scream it in the street laughing, while the ones who are it see them and keep moving. You're not supposed to down-talk your product, but i hate selling myself, or things about me. So to have a huge part of my spirit, and therefore some of the coloring and flavor of my soul as a [this] human being condensed and boxed into a slogan logo on a t-shirt is insulting and infuriating, people will dig it, and it will liberate some, and it will help others, while the ones who are entertained and enjoy the quirky (or whatever)ness of it will go for that. Basically, the real fire people will see this and agree, and move on. Very few will actually buy it. They don't need to. They are it. You can't buy what's already there in abundance... what never leaves. Like people praying, "inviting" the holy spirit into a church... every sunday... or every time they go into the place. Why'd you drive the spirit out in the first place? The spirit isn't a yoyo, for you to "invite" and then reject and run from, and then invite and draw back to you again, so you [the church] can "have" church like a f[something]ing piece of cake. See? Fire.
THE NAME, or moreso the concept, is what it is. It's a warning to others that the wearer is fire. Should I really get into the whole fire thing? I've written a lot about fire. Here's "a" song about it.
Fire can have different colors that can show different intensities, with the blue flame being one of the hottest burning ones. When looking things up on this i found: Dark Red (first visible glow): ~500°C–600°C (932°F–1,112°F), Dull Red / Cherry Red: ~600°C–1,000°C (1,112°F–1,832°F), Orange: ~1,000°C–1,200°C (1,832°F–2,192°F), Yellow: ~1,200°C–1,400°C (2,192°F–2,552°F), White: ~1,400°C–1,600°C (2,552°F–2,912°F), and Blue: ~1,600°C–3,000°C+ (2,912°F–5,432°F+). I first became interested in this when in chemistry class, and saw Skip Orhowsky (forgive the spelling) burn copper and it burned green. Iron burned blue. It was fascin--cool that different things burned different colors, and different things had different melting points. ANYWAYS, i came up with the concept of BLACKLIGHT FIRE when thinking about anti-matter, the veil, and other "unseen" and "unknown" ways of BEING, and since everything exists, there is some fire that cannot be seen. Things in the ultraviolet spectrum for instance... and it clicked-- "Blacklight Fire." The heart and fire of Blacklights.
For the folks who are not it, here's a glimpse into what it's like when you are it. For the folks who are it, you know this is only a drop: (1) Conscious beings will you but won't, and from there, things burn (thoughts are things). There is the fullness of you, but this is not wanted because it is (because it exists... like asking for power. People want power but having to get it, and then having it, rarely goes and then ends well). Things cannot grow where there is fullness. There must be lack to gain, and so, as solid as you are, and as tangible as you are, you are not. Fire. They crave the drug-- the illusion of you that they create from their own fire, which they'll ignore to drain yours, and they'll invest heavily in that division and deception, doing a great deal to maintain it because of... Fire.
(2) So, the light "you have" (really the light you are, but they're fixated on the illusion of having, which is really, honestly, their wanting and fixation on the chase/ "getting" so they will never honestly have... because they already do, and it will never be enough), they want, but complain about the intensity. They will be enthralled by it, and want to covet it, yet have it serve only them blindly, and get mad when the fire they went after burns them. Unless they can use it ignorantly, they will not respect it, and will not rest until it is "theirs" to waste.
(3) They blame the fire for being fire when they apply the fire to things. The heat and passion they'll fear, unless they do it the same as they do the light. The passion and fury, the same. For instance, for musicians, they will love the music, and want all of the songs to be about them, and when you're burning, making music, they will be upset that you're not focused on them, while you're making their song. And when you're done, they won't recognize it for too long... and want more songs. For what? These things and more, fire. The relationship is a thing they "want" but not honestly. Again, they create lack and want to fill it with you, fire(s).
(4) Fire does not burn things intentionally-- it's just fire being fire. It's not burning to the fire. Things reduce to ash, the fire does not change. It's the lack of currency created by the thing, that allows the fire to be dominant in their eyes. Again, the fire does not change. Whether a building, a country, or a small leaf or campfire wood, the fire is just being the fire, getting to know what you introduce it to. You meet. In most cases, the fire just offers light and heat, invisible where it touches, which releases the potential of the thing, and it burns itself. The fire shows you the way, and you burn away in the passion and excitement, the illumination and warmth, the power and the whole illusion of a being that is you, but you're manipulating for your own reason... until you've burned yourself away and blame the fire for being fire. The fire is just on the thing, and the thing (in the relationship) is on... fire. Only what is offered, or exposed as in the path and ready and willing to be on fire, ignites. The loneliness of the fire, those who are NOT it will not know. It is worse than the golden touch in a way. At least then you'd have a golden statue, as opposed to the same ashes everywhere, and only the smoke of it as a moving memory. But they won't stop growing cold and dividing, so they'll want more and more of the fire they leave to get. All of this and more... the fire. Fire people get it. Those who want to be will rationalize it, because they "have" it, but "are not it." Illusions. Everything is something to do. C'est la vie, la guerre, et le jeu.
I could music all day. You're here for t-shirts. Screw the fire. 😎
THE DESIGN was so so. There are actually 2 versions. There's the regular fire one, with the lower intensity fire, and a blacklight fire version-- that did not come out how I wanted it, so I'm waiting for the computer to work properly so i can do it how i want it done. Until then, here's the lower intensity "regular" fire one. It's just a regular chunky bold font with an image of fire inside of the letters. There was some layering of the outline around the letters that was annoying. You have to make the letters solid in one layer. On top of that you add the image of the fire. You select the letters, and then go back to the fire and cut the fire in the shape of the letters. Then you go back to the letters, and add an outline. Then you make another layer of the letters below that (under that layer) and make another outline which will be the gap, which is best to do some solid color like white or something easy to gab/select, to delete it later. Then you do that last step again, so you end up with something like:
- very bottom/newest layer 4 = letters with biggest outline.
- Layer 3 (above that) = letters with thinner outline which will be deleted once merged.
- layer 2 (above/on top of 3) = letters with outline to frame the fire.
- layer 1 (top layer) = the fire, which you can add a thin colored layer to highlight the fire.
Then you merge all of those so it's one layer. Delete that gap layer. That will now be blank space that the shirt color can come through. So from the outside, moving in, you have Black outline, shirt color outline, black outline framing fire, highlight of fire, fire. The only thing holding me up, again, is the color of the fire. The computer kept messing up when trying to save it (not enough ram or whatever) so i had to just stop making progress and do regular life. I have a bunch of video that needs to be edited, and in that huge stack, i think , is the creation of that image. I'm not sure, but i feels like i recorded that one. Creating the lower intensity (regular) fire version was pretty simple, and in that i was working out the kinks, because the plan was really for the Blacklight Fire one. The only hold up was that I didn't like the colors on the blacklight one.
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LAST EDITED: 03.14.26
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LANDSCAPES. That's the idea. Beautiful landscapes. Everything is so mass produced and fake, i just wanted some images of something organic and peaceful. This is one of the newest sets, so expect some trial and error, getting down the overall concept and style, but, if all goes well, then the idea is to do some shirts and designs that kind of resemble polaroids of landscapes.
THE NAME For Shore actually came from all of the beach people I know. I'm not really a beach person. I don't understand it, nor can i stand it for too long-- just being honest. The beach is crowded, and you stand there, looking at the ocean, or baking in the sun. Maybe some music, maybe some whatever else you can get away with. Maybe ogle some people or people watch, jokes, whatever else, but it's a very limited experience in a very vast place, densely populated. I don't get it. I understand it, yes, but I don't get it for me. I exist more in moments than in places. BUT, for the folks who love the beaches, those were the ones I was thinking of, and the shirt overall-- the image covering the shirt. THAT idea is what i was enjoying, to the point of inspiration, and that led me to want to create. Time, mind, and resources allowed me to create, but i had to take those. It's not for me (the shirts). I only exist, or get energy from the air about it, if you understand that. The ruach of it all, the mist, the idea-- the world void and without form, in that everything state, but once it becomes a solid tangible thing, it loses a lot, and becomes a little boring. I did make a few "beach" songs though... "Wow, you've done a lot!" No, not really. None of it is impressive, and none of it means anything. On top of that, no one cares. And shortly after I'm gone, it will mean even less than nothing. "Tears... in rain..." --Roy Batty. Anyways.... the first one and the last three i like the most. Love them all, but i like those 4 the most.
Like i said, there's a small handful of places, and most I won't mention. Don't feel bad though, I'm not really much of an anything kind of person outside of the moment, and the moment is second by second. Bars maybe, and some other places, but there are rarely any places that, to me, are places that I can just "return to" and have it be that homely, solitude, "me" kind of place-- usually because other people show up, if they're not there already. The fewer people the better, unless they're background random videogame characters, like the random people walking around in the background of GTA or something.
Like if you go to a large stadium concert, 90% of the people there aren't really "people" to you, they're atmosphere. It's an organic, free-willed atmosphere, but still, you won't interact with the majority of them. There's a small number who you will interact with, but the interactions are honest to the vibe, not to your selves-- you react in the vibe of the moment based on your common ground. Those are human beings, and kind of people, but you get no real sense of THEIR personalities, only a glimpse at their persona. What's "known" or expressed is just the persona you all share (we're fans of whoever this concert is about, and beings influenced by that culture). Moving in more from that, there's an even smaller group, who you interact with, and it actually gets personal. They're real people. You have names. You have more honest and free (outside of the confines of the vibe) conversations. Brief, and kind of "one night stand'ish", but you connect, and maybe made some friends, or a friend. SO, most places, because of the atmosphere "people" get to be too much static and chatter, and annoying. The places I like to go, I'll usually like to go alone, or with only very few people. The beach has never really been one of those places because of all of the people, but people i go to the beach with are those places.
Mamas, don't let your babies grow up to be cowboys.
THE DESIGN? Just clean and easy, simple, landscape images-- but good ones. The first one was of the beach. I'd done 2 (AI... the shame, but at the moment I don't have the funds to go to these places and take the pictures myself... or pay anyone to do it, or pay them for their photos) but AI being AI, doing what AI does, made some palm tree tops floating in the sky at the beach with two suns or whatever it was. AI is good for if you're intoxicated. You might not notice what's going on, but to sober people looking for actual realism, humanity, organic natural things... AI doesn't cut it.
(I have to hit space 9x's because you can't hit "tab" to indent in wix). As far as the overall style of images? There's some retro ones I've done since the first ones, with a blend of realism and some 80's neon flair to it. They look neat. I'm still not sure which direction I'll take the designs, not that i have to stay in any particular direction. Right now, I'm really feeling the clean, kinda pastel or faded-- like sun and time bleached natural organic landscape shots. It's simple. It's classy. The trick is how to get a polaroid onto a shirt and not have it be boring. It's so framed, that all of the white space around the image would dull the whole thing. In some cases, it would make the image pop more, depending on the colors, but too much white border/framing would be... boring. Says me.
As for the PRODUCTS? That, too, depends on the images, and is still in the air. I wanted to do some tanktops, in that "ALL-OVER PRINT" technique, since the special technique of shadowboxing wasn't available. Doing just a boxed or framed image on a tee gets old, but it's a classic thing, so it never gets old at the same time. All-Over prints re more unique though, and harder for people to copy or steal the exact design, so you can put things in there to make it your signature design. I dunno, I'll figure something out.
Sneak Peek? Ok, why not. I never know when I'll leave here... or when you will. At least we get to have this moment, eh?
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LAST EDITED: 03.13.26
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